late late night thoughts for you:

smarts don't win this war.........the brain just cannot grasp itself which is why we seek help from pdocs and Ts and other professionals so that we stay alive and learn better ways of living that life we're alive for.

the meds issue is troublesome. imo this needs attention first. "my husband is really getting annoyed w/ me when I don't sleep; or when I'm on the computer; or when I'm staggering around b/c someone ate too many hoarded meds; finding bruises on my body & I don't know how/why I have them" Your husband needs to do more than be annoyed. I agree with others that his intervening here is most likely necessary. We cannot have you hoarding meds and doped up and strung out and passed out and bruised up. This isn't good hon.

I'm aware I preach to the choir here.

The ED issues are monsterous to deal with and you know better than I that with the methods being utilized by all involved with the ED behaviours are ultimately going to lead to permanent harm.

Someone in you is aware enough to post honestly here and tell us the truth of what is going on in your lives.

what is reality? that's part of your subject line for this thread. Reality is getting the help you not only deserve but desperately NEED!! and yes like someone else here mentioned if trickery is needed then do it! You're smart enough to know that silly dayzeeeeee Fool yourselves into getting help. In fact I'm less concerned with how you go about it than I am that you DO start getting help with these very serious issues that affect your ability to think, function, you know......basically live.

kindly and overlysleepy