Molly This is in your hands now, sweety! We can all encourage you and support you, but ultimately it's up to you. You mentioned you drew the med up in a syringe--is it an oral liquid or a shot you do weekly or how ever often? Next step is yours, hon. Take it. Show yourself that you want to walk the path towards healing. Question for you--if one of the little children that you will be working with falls down and scrapes their knee but it isn't bleeding and they don't want a bandaid, you wouldn't put one on it, right? But what if they fall down and it's really bleeding and needs a bandaid but they don't want one? Would you just walk away and let the blood get all over and make a mess, or would you show them how the bandaid will help it stop and keep it from being messy and keep it from getting infected? Your medication is a bandaid, a small thing needed to help you. It's not stitches or a cast, it's a small thing. Use it before you need a big thing. Please.