well, please be careful and follow your Dr.s' advice. carrying on in this fashion is not good for your health in any way.. we need to be mindful of our own best interests because if we dont do it ourselves, no one is going to do it for us, right? also, continue seeing your therapist.. from your posts today in depression i am worried for you and the hospital might be something for you to consider.... we cannot let ourselves become too frazzled and deny ourselves the treatments provided... you have a chance at better health... always hoping you feel better ((molly)))