really tough day today- keep having to put off seeing a psycho (although I don't really want to), wrecked with anxiety. people offer their help from time to time irl but they don't really know how to help me, what's wrong with me, how to approach me, I'm such a clam

nervous for a loved one, scared for a friend, there's so few people I really know who I could call a true friends, it kills me to have to dread what will happen to the ones I have.