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Oct 29, 2008, 08:14 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2008
Posts: 69
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Pepto  ,
It is so hard to put your all into a place called "home" and it's not appreciated - a place you once thought was yours. It can be yours again. It's hard when those who you thought loved you shred you and put you down with their behaviors and words - leaves you feeling like you fell off the merry-go-round wondering what in the heck just happened. Sometimes there may even be a question of... "what'd I do?" and you didn't do a darn tootin' thing! The behavior of those you observed through the window... don't let yourself get there...to where they are. Sometimes it's best not to even try to figure out the whats and the whys of what other people do because there isn't really an answer.
It's hard when you've got to pretend that it doesn't affect you, that you've got to be this cardboard figure and take all the crap dished out at you and not have one reaction. Sometimes we've grown so accustomed to how we're supposed to "behave" in those situations that we don't even realize all the crap we do put up with until someone on the outside asks you how you put up with it... "put up with what?". Any way, I'm sorry I let this get so long and I really don't know the situation you're in, but parts of it sounded so familiar that it was almost like I was reading something I wrote! All I can say is take care of yourself. You're not responsible for bad choices someone else makes. If they choose to behave like selfish self-centered idiots, then that's what they are BUT it's not who you are. It's hard to watch through the window and knowing that they know better. It's hard when you've wanted to help fix the situation and make it better but it doesn't work that way. Do your best to take care of yourself, to be safe. I'll quit going on and on but do take care of yourself... you can't control the others, but you can do your best to take care of you.
Many 's,
Einna
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