((Jenn))) i understand well what you are feeling.. so many situations in your life pressuring you this way and that and the inner work you're doing is a huge and unforgettable amount of stress.. i just know you will look back from your future and say something like "Whew!" That was hard!" but then, you'll pause a minute and feel something like love for yourself because of all you've had to endure..

we dont choose this stuff, it chooses us...

you've had a breakthrough and felt a rush of energy and joy and renewed faith.. it felt miraculous and fantastic.. i hope you let yourself feel every moment of joy for all it is worth (do this in the future too )

lifes usual hassles are still around.. some new questions, a few doubts about it..

its ok, it happens... you might have been waiting for that feeling to fade, and it has.. thats ok.. the new knowledge is still there...

now as you go day to day with chores and projects, remember that rush of emotion you felt for awhile.. you can have it again..

this is a process of pushing and breathing.,... you are giving birth to a healthier you.... its hard, but it is possible to enjoy this process....

im here in your corner always.. you are one of the ones who never gives up!