its not too uncommon around here actually ((Manda)))) it seems like some parts of ourselves break off and do different jobs for us when we have a surprising or unexplainable event happen to us... our inner self is a sensitive being.. shock and surprise happen quickly and our minds dont always have enough time to process all the incoming... at that point a part of ourselves might slip away to a different, safer area where all this isnt happening... its like that part of us stays hidden and small for years and we dont seem to notice...

the little girl is you, another aspect of your protected inner self...

im a grown male and i have to tell you... some of the stuff ive seen and see makes me want to do just what you feel like doing at times... and other stuff too..

i couldnt let myself stay shattered and paralyzed after my son and i separated.. in his name it was time to do something, be somebody...

not everyone has to do something or be something if they dont want to...
but the memories come when we see something or smell something or think something thats somehow connected to that original event..

and harder for us, waiting a long time to look at those thoughts and fears adds more stuff to it, like a bridge with one beam missing, the upper wieght of the heavy locomotive eventually collapses our bridges from the ground upwards, leaving us feeling pretty unstable for awhile..

thankfully a lot of research has been done for us.... check out some of the posts in the various forums, see which ones you can relate to and jump in at some point... the kindness at PC is incomparable and i dont go other places.. we have the best right here !