((((((((((Kebs))))))))))

I hear you. I hear you and I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. What you described is all too familiar to me, as I'm sure it is to others here as well.

What do I do?

Well, I allow myself to cry a little (or try and express my emotions somehow)... and then I wait for the storm to pass. It always does... sometimes it just takes a little longer then others.

As for waking up in the night... just think of it as your body's way of trying to express itself.

The best thing to do to try and stop the days from running into nights and all over again, is to break the cycle. Do something that you wouldn't normally do. It doesn't have to be anything exotic or expensive, or even time consuming. It can be anything... distract yourself with things you use to do as a child. Make a phone call to an old friend. Look deep into yourself and see all the good and love that is there (and it IS there, don't say it isn't). Just do something to make the days seem more separate, and you'll feel more whole.

Hang in there... and i'm always here if you need a shoulder, or someone to just bounce ideas off of.