The last several months have been blissful because my head has been by and large very quiet. I haven't heard voices or anything. Now the voices are starting to come back. It started yesterday. Luckily, I'll be seeing my counselor later on today, but I wanted to get some stuff out now anyway. I think the voices are from repressed anger. I'm sick of anger and have no idea how to get rid of it anymore. I've spent ages trying to vent it, with no success, and now I'm afraid I'm jaded about it. I think I wasn't successful because I felt at some deep level that I'd be humiliating myself if I expressed the rage I feel and other people heard me. I've been deeply humiliated many many times in life and I've stuffed it all and I think there's a part of me that's trying to protect me from having that happen again. The problem is, instead of protecting me, it's keeping me from getting better. I still don't know how to circumvent it, but at least I have a better idea of what's going on. I'm really sick of this crap, and I'm ready for it to stop, but there's still a part of me that can't handle it, and I don't know what to do. Thanks for letting me vent.