(((((((dayzee))))))))

Ty

yes...that is what I need to do.

My family just wants me to be "okay" ...they know they almost lost me quite a few times and during those times I was married.

My now ex dealt w/it at that time. So they don't have to nor know really how to. I wouldn't even come to them really until it was way over the edge, which I only just touched the surface with my sister a few weeks ago because I wanted to go to the hospital.

SHe was so upset trying to get all emotional with me and I didn't want to be touched. Don't get me wrong I love my family, but I have an awfully hard time receiving their love (affection) especially when I'm mentally not well.

I hate them seeing me not well or any emotions from me. I don't like asking them for help or anything really.
I don't even want to talk to them. I don't have any patience for them.

I know this might sound suprising. If you knew more it might not be though.

ANyways, yes this place I'm very thankful for and it is helping me very very much. I'm able to receive the support here like I told kimmy, which is something that is so new to me and really very much appreciated.

Thank you so much

*hugs*
Take care
Eva