thank you both for what you said. and i know you can not pick your friends or family. but then you are right you can pick your family and friends. i guess both you can pick in some ways. manny's family are nice people and i something feel they don't like me or my son. manny doesn't understand because he has a good family and not bad friends. there isn't much i can do about my family just that i hope they come around and see that life is too short for this bull..i am not saying i been much help too but like i said i have the right to express how i feel just like everyone else too. and thank you for saying you are my friends i like to very much.. my friends that i have only hung out with me if i had a car or they do things with me because they feel sorry or because manny is good friends with her boyfriend and you know what they can go to hell because i don't need that too.

but thank you again. i seen doctors and it didn't help me at all. it only open doors that i wish to keep close. i am having so much problems with me son and the way he is with me, manny and his siter and manny's family and with himself...will it ever get better...