Bottom line I think I have a sex addiction. All I think about is sex and what makes it an addiction is that I act on the fantasies I think about. I purposely go out of my way to find a man to sleep with. I have a spreadsheet with all the men I've slept with and let me tell you it is pretty lengthy. I'm not trying to brag about how many men I can get in bed okay maybe a little, but my point is that it's a real problem for me. And I mean there's no commitment in these relationships. I just get it and go. I know that this behavior is a part of my borderline and narcissistic disorders but i think there's something more to it. Thing is, men can't resist me. Even if I let go of this addiction I would be letting down several men. I'm so ambivalent, I want to change but I don't. Can anyone late to any of this or is this totally random?