I read your post Jen and its heart breaking. I want to say that how you feel is normal. It must be mind boggling to not know whats ahead and i can understand your fear and also your feeling of not being able to motivate yourself. I dont have an answer, but it will pass. You will have more results in November and then things might be different. Im sure they will. Its a body blow you have had and its only natural to struggle, its a big issue Jen. We think of you daily and still we have our fingers crossed for you.