Try community mental health, maybe through local hospital. Also try Catholic Social Services. You do not have to be Catholic and they provide help on a sliding fee scale based on what you can pay...from nothing up to full price. Have you tried any techniques to calm down yet? Slowly take in those deep breathes. Sometimes we get so upset and aggitated it seems like an endless loop. Please reach out to someone IRL to help you through this. Don't let money be an obstical (and I know how very many things it is an obsticle too.) You can do this. I believe in you.