Oh sweety!! No stupid...hurting!! An hour ago, did you pick up the phone to call? No--so you are already steps ahead of where you were an hour ago. Some people jump in with both feet, some people wade slowly in and some people start by dipping their toes. It doesn't make you stupid. Now that you are done with your tool put it in a bowl, put some water in it and put it in the freezer. It's ok to be scared. If you would like to, I'll go in chat with you while you are calling them. You are not stupid.