Thank you lost!!
I appreciate how hard your fighting now...We all have to start somewhere huh? I guess it's so frusturating because I am not aware of the secrets my inner selves know? The one's that I am aware of seem bad enough that I feel evil and guilty and disgusting..the more the thought's come forward or I get clarity then I start to not want to go out anywhere..It's like every person I see can see through me..I feel so vulnerable right now..It is however wierd for the first time in a year I am reaching out to my T..she is responding ever so carefully too I can tell that brings me relief..She has even offered to go with me to my drs appt. cuz I am having really bad intrusive thought's and I had quit all my meds a few months back cuz I got tired of being on them and feeling so badly..Now I can see things are coming at me with such a fast rate and I do NOT want to go back to the hospital again..I have been so much in the last 3 years dealing with these issues...I appreciate your words and encouragment...I am scared right now and cold and feel not good...Feel like I am going to be in trouble for giving these painful thoughts a voice?
Miserycriz