Eva,
Thanks for the welcome and nice to meet you too.

So, you started therapy at a young age, I think that's the best way to go. Wish I wouldn't have been so stubborn and started years ago- I just wouldn't let go of the denial.
Thanks for hoping I get the help I need, I also hope things get better and better for you. It is very hard for some of us to open up, isn't it? I'm glad you're beginning to now.

I can so relate to your friend and what she was probably feeling. Do you know, just curious, are those sisters close as adults now? My sister is always wanting to be close- but on HER terms- if I try to put things in a neutral state (where she doesn't always have "better")- then she pulls away from me.

I think I have this idea that I must have less than others for a relationship to exist- so now, I'm at the place where I don't want to be "less" -- but fear any relationship where I'm not "less" just doesn't exist. Does that make sense?? It's like I'm looking for the impossible---

Thanks again,

Mandy