i hear you. in fact i weigh more at the moment than i have ever weighed in my life. i've been eating like a crazy person. last night i got up in the middle of the night and ate a dozen cookies. i also did that the night before. it makes no sense. i don't want them especially and i have long since given myself permission to eat them. i don't think i can blame the drugs, except for causing me to be insufficiently upset about it :P as opposed to the obsessive dieting of my past.

so much for my intuitive eating. i think i better re-read that book today.

i do know that hating yourself does not help.