Thanks chitown and jmo.

I'm so stupid. I was supposed to have a therapy session today and I canceled it because I didn't like that the counselor wanted to focus on things from like 40 years ago instead of helping me get through the current issues and THEN let me work on the past.

She's in her office until 8:00 tonight, but now the answering service is picking up since it's after 5:00 and they don't have her schedule. I can't believe I did that.

I feel like I'm blowing everything out of proportion. Since he didn't leave a DARK bruise on my daughter, it's not going to count. Since his girlfriend only had my son roll the dice for a drinking game but he didn't actually drink, it's not going to count.

What am I fighting for? I don't even know any more. I want to get his illegal demands overturned and I want him to be responsible for his children instead of treating them like a nuicance and brushing them aside or hitting them. It just makes me sick to my stomach that I can't stand up for myself and my kids better. I can't work, I can't sleep, I can't eat or I eat too much. Why did I do this to myself?