Tks all for your good thoughts.

Well, I was going to bounce it off the psychologist, and actually "warned" him of the idea in a voice message, so as not to catch him offguard with the idea in session today....

then he called in sick. I took it as a higher power's intention to deny me the motivation to cancel the contract....

sigh. odd thing, my physical therapist called in sick today too.

Anyway... more on the story... I called the attorney's office late today anyway, asking for something in writing saying that tomorrow's hearing was cancelled. (I was afraid they would hold it anyway and I would lose everything!) They told me the hearing was today. Well, then that it was cancelled. They sent me (faxed) a letter stating so.

sheesh. My document they last sent me was for the 5th! Also, the opposition's last offer was $200k and the last one I received from the attorney in writing was $100 k. (Doesn't matter, no where near enough to care for me.) But shows I'm not getting accurate information from my own attorney!

And... the opposition is up to the same games. They refused to authorize the dietician they promised to (she called me today to tell me.) And they have refused the wrist splints which they promised from earlier mediations (and have provided previously.) My dentist didn't call with arrangements for the beginning of the dental work, so I know they haven't received authorization either.

Why did I give up everything ... because OF stress, I know.. but to alleviate stress, when it just continues????? sigh.