Thank you for the replies and kind words and thoughts. I'm currently seeing a psychiatrists he has me currently on 300 mg of Zoloft and 1 mg xanax 4 times a day and ambien cr at night as needed. I have been doing my best to be honest to him and myself about all the things I'm dealing with so far so good. It is nice to be able to share with everyone and to be able to get such nice feedback I appreciate all of you and look forward to talking more and geting to know you.