Hi Everyone,

I am wondering if anyone has any ideas that can help me - i am coming up to the anniversary of the event that gave me my ptsd - i seem to have a clock in my head that's counting down and whenever i am not keeping myself flat out busy i am reminded that its a couple of weeks to go - it's not something im trying to keep in my head - not something i want to remember - somthing came up at work recently and i related it back to my event and the others there didnt even remember it - so why should i ? (this will make it two years ) it is drawing the last bit of strength i have left and as it gets closer to the day i get more and more tired - i have to work today and i really really really and did i say REALLY dont want to go - being there reminds me every day of what happened - even though it's relatively safe now (is anywhere really safe?) The more i push it away the more it came back so I sat down and said ok lets go over this and i did I thought the whole thing through - but that clock still keeps ticking off the days in my head..... how do you deal with anniversaries? P7