Mike...seriously...You are fine the way you are...why you become sooo insecure i have no idea..it might be from the way your father treated you for one...he treated you like krap..made you feel guilty for you trying to be yourself and happy..like being happy was a bad thing...rather like someone im with tries to do with me...And I think of how im treated by that person And think to myself F you...im a good person. Though sometimes im not haha..which we both know :P . Anyhow if this is about us..stop worrying..seriously...You know i Will love you no matter what and always...I just have my flaws...And feel like i can never be repaired :/ ..which i know some will disagee with. But I will always be here for you no matter what.Another thing cup cake :P ... We have something not many have..and its a gift...lets keep things the way they are...not dread on the negative..or things that could go wrong and just focus on now..thats the most we can do. I have moved on from my rapes..no biggy for me..it was a lesson in my life I learned. Everything in life happens for a reason love...just look hard at the reason and prevent it from happening again. Hugs and kisses