hi bexter. I just read bits of your blog here and there. I can empathize with it. However, at the moment I'm having a bad day or two and had to have my pdoc call me. I was not thinking and could not think what any next move must be. For now, I'm taking trazadone early and all my other meds and hoping. I managed to have a good trick or treat tonight with my kids andn boyfriend. Now I am listening to soothing music. Do you like music? choirs? Lots of times this music soothes me like now, but others, like yesterdsay I was hypo manic and it didn't help a bit. I will read more of your blog in time, but now I don't think I can digest it emotinally. Thank you for posting here!