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multipixie9 · 09:44 AM

it has taken me a very long time to begin to feel free to express my anger and not get totally scared of even my own anger.

parts can go into hiding inside us when they are accused of being satanic. she must be seeing your progress and is trying to make her presence known and get part of the help that she needs to be healed and released from the pain of the past.

this little alter needs comfort from you. what i do is hold a soft teddy bear and rock it and talk gently to the alter and just say what i would if there were a small child in my arms. you can tell your T about this alter too and seek some help for both of them to begin to be accepted and given some appropriate attention. these are all part of you and like you they have distress and pain and need help. you don't need to be scared of them and you do need to talk to the older, angrier one, Vanessa and offer her some ways to express her anger through drawing, hitting pillows or any "controlled" expression of anger that does not hurt the body you share or anyone else.

this "movement" you experience sounds like a good thing to me. somehow inside they know you are stronger and they can ask for some attention to their needs.

edit: there are some incorrect ideas expressed by this "exorcism" that if you let your self be angry that you had "let satan back in". anger itself is not satanic, it is just human emotion. some people go so far in their anger that their actions are totally wrong, but just being angry is not spiritually incorrect. we all need to learn how to express our anger if we lived with abuse and were not allowed to be angry ourselves and/or saw a lot of abusive expressions of anger.

feel free to PM me if you want to, i'd be glad to talk if i can help. hugs, leslie and her pixies