Having a T there at least is great. But like Sannah said... you won't heal if you don't express yourself. Are you close to your family? Could you, do you think, try and tell them what's going on. I can understand you not telling your kids though (depending on there age) and for now it's not a bad idea. It's natural to protect your kids and want to give them all you can.
Please take care
Molly