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Sorry everyone this was just mad panic............i'd just recieved a call too say that he had been to court and had been released on bail awaiting start of trial as he has pleaded noy guilty...............so this will force me to have to go and give evidence beingcross examined etc.......but then why am l suprised by this .............l knew he would and l know that he will make this as hard as possible in the hope that l will flip and not be able to proceed.................
now know conditions of his bail
no contact with me at all , not allowed to calll , visit or harass
not to near house or childrens school
no contact with me through any family members
l still have the house alarm which has a direct fast response to police station
so l guess this was me doing exactly what he expected me to do...............not handling it, flipping out, no rational thoughts about it all
sorry ........calmer today......but just need to try keep this panic under control.............l know this no place for emergency upport and now feel very stupid and mad with myself to the way that l responded l wont do it again
sorry..........
mandyx
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