Thanks Holmes.

Thats what i thought anyway, but after seeing my psychiatrist about it he just made me feel so stupid. He has no idea or it sounds like he doesn´t about the different degrees of bipolar. He contradicted everything i have read on the subject, actually everything that made me feel so "home" and gave me hope for help.
Told me i would loose weight when depressed not binge eat and put on weight like i do.. That it was wrong that i feel so tired and can sleep all the time. That it was impossible to still love my son when feeling down.. That it was impossible to sometimes know triggers to my mood changes.. That i would constantly have racing thoughts and not constant thoughts that gets repeated again and again and keeping me up at night when i am down or worried.. And that it was impossible to change mood so frequently as i do.

I just felt so stupid after that conversation. I went home and found sooo much on the internet and sent it to him in a mail. I wanted him to see that i wasn´t stupid and show him why i felt like this was definately a possibility.
He responded and said he could now see why i was worried bipolar might be an issue and asked me what medication my brother is on..
Now i don´t know what is going to happen, does he see it too now or does he just think i am silly?
I think it is quite sad that he only knows about bipolar 1 and that i had to send him info on the subject.

Well.. i am interested in seeing what will happen on tuesday when we are meeting up..