no... the depression wants you to give in, not you.... and I will pray for you hunny, but I will pray that you are kept safe and that you'll get through this.
Have you thought anymore about therapy? I really think it could be beneficial.
I know you can do this... don't give up... keep trying, we're here to do all we can, but you need to make the steps (little fairy steps if you must) but keep going.

take care,
Molly
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Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter