Butterfly Lady - Thank you so much for the comforting words. Yes, I'm sure your correct since I was doing pretty good this morning until I read that email about rabies. Then, it was all downhill from there. Every sensation, ache or tingle brought on a new surge of adrenalin. Incidentally, I was looking at your profile and saw the part about Tourette's Syndrome. It's funny you mention that because I've had this condition since childhood and also have the echolalia as well. If there's anything you want to know, I'd be happy to share.

jmo531 - Oh my yes, is'nt it just aweful?. I HATE that lump feeling but why does it sometimes feel a bit sore?. It's not sore like a sore throat or anything but it just freaks me out real bad because when I swallow, it clicks and feels kind of tender/irritated or something. I am hoping to go see a therapist myself soon but have no idea what to expect. I took the first step today by leaving a message on the answering machine of the clinic I used to go to and asking them for the name/phone of a therapist they once gave me a referral for (I'm on medicaid).

You know, I was half-thinking earlier about putting in a request in this forum or perhaps another one and asking if someone would be willing to be my "real life" friend (ie; go out for coffee, talk and support each other, etc) - possably even someday end up being my roommate or something. Of course that in itself brings up all kinds of issues of trust, motives and a bunch of other stuff but my only motive is that I LOVE people, need support and I don't ever want to be alone.

Well, that's about all. Thank's for all your help and support!!