Called my T and said we need to talk and took my meds this morning... sounds like nothing but it's something I never do. I'll hate myself in an hour for doing that but at least right now I can take a little pride in almost not being so stubborn. I don't want to drag the people I care about down with me today.

So something slightly positive I've done amidst all this pain. Refusing painkiller meds still which makes it hurt worse, it's been a bad time and this is the beginning of a new month... it's gonna be a tough week, this week But at least I've done something today.