Thank you everyone....I don't know what my problem has been here latley...I have been having such severe mood swings. It feels like I am spinning in circles...didn't help that yesterday at home was "bash Sparrow" day, everytime I turned around my mom or little sister was chewing me out and letting me know how lazy and selfish I was...days at home alone with mom and little sister are always unpleasent ones..I tend to just hide in my room...but even then..it gets to me....sad thing is my little sister is 10 and she already is just as manipulative as my mom..

I just hope..I can find a T soon, one that can help me..and I can talk to..we are trying to pick ourself up after the last T fiasco...but we are feeling apprhensive..since the last T said very cruel and hurtful things...and upset alters....which I think has a major hold on the severe mood thing...since we process hurt emotions slow....

Thank you all..for such kind words...it helps lift our spirits...to know there are kind and loving people out there..it gives us hope...we try and rember the kind words when we are feeling down and out of order