I'm sorry you are feeling so angry and hopeless. I'm also sorry you are had such a problem with your pdoc. If you are unhappy with the relationship please find a different one that works for you instead. As you don't have a job right now you will probably be able to apply for help to get you into a doctor. As for low cost meds there is Lithium. I think you can get a scrip filled at Wal-Mart for $4.