thanks all
all this time since I posted here I put off seeing the psych - lots of icky real world stuff, but I know things for everyone around me will be hard if I'm not well myself, so I'm finally going for the first time this week.
worried and anxious! all the kind replies I got here are encouraging, sorry for not having written back sooner - been very busy.
been here for a few months now and it's funny that this is almost like an introduction

scared for this week but this is the beginning on learning more about what troubles me.