we're here. keep posting. i just did that too. had a really bad day and called my friend to cancel - said i was sick. she gets that. we're both teachers. i was sick - sick of it all going wrong. are you in therapy by any chance? that's a good a place as any to start. it does suck to look at our lives... but if we don't they don't change. I know. I played that game for.... what year is this.... 13 years. wow, i've been saying 10 years. it really doesn't get better if not addressed. Things are starting to change for me now.... finally. (((angel))) kiya