Seems like I'm asking for help more and more and I don't like it, but I'm determined--at least for the morning--to try to not have any negative thoughts about myself. But...I'm craving really bad right now. I'm at work, so it's hard. I want chocolate. I want it, pure and simple. I'm trying to do month end reports, figure out new front desk schedule, worry about money, worry about upcoming layoffs in the office, stressing about my personal life and I want chocolate. Why? Because the taste of it in my mouth makes me happy. Yes, I could go to the store and buy an apple, or some carrots. They do not make me happy the way the taste of chocolate does. I've already eaten 14 peanut M&M's and 1 hershey kiss. I'm drinking water. A lot of it. No, I know it's not the safest, healthiest, best decision. I know that. I just need someone to grab my ankles and keep me in my chair so I don't go in the back and get some more candy. Someone to tell me I'm not a loser to help keep those negative thoughts at bay. Someone to tell me I'm not alone and not a freak. Please.