Thanks, Bexter. I think the same thing- be accountable to others, whether or not its my kids or my boyfriend or a friend. Helps me through the really hard times, when that voice in the back of my mind goes "...but..." (The regular internal self-talk voices! )

Still, I haven't heard from my pdoc today. I did talk with my dad, though, about these choices and he said to tell her exactly what I told him (although much faster, I guess!). My dad also said that she probably is doing what she thinks is best and to that credit, I DID point out to her, Friday on the phone, that doubling the risperdal AND adding Trazadone would make the sleepiness worse. So tonight, I am hoping not to take the trazadone AND seeing if we can't come to a reasonable compromise with these meds. I just filled half my scripts- 6- that were due. Not all are for bipolar, though. Others are for asthma.