I don't normally post at all let alone about something that is really bringing me down. Since saturday night I have felt so alone and so without people to talk to. I have realized that as much as my friends in real life have said that they are always here for me they are truely not but they do expect me to be there for them all the time. I Moved out on my own fully this weekend but have been pretty much on my own since last wed. I woke up on and off last night realizing that I am truely alone. I have spent the day feeling like there is a wall between me and everyone else and that no one wants to enter the door that I have left open. I know I have fallen backward since I am getting the Urge to write. I only write when I am feeling like I have no one else to talk to. My T isn't much help when it comes to things he just is working on me realizing I have emotions. I am just lost and feel very helpless. I am starting to see myself drift away from everything that I have held onto to helping me recover. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I know I will be fine and will come though this and things will look up, it's just when. I know that this will not keep me down forever. I just have to find that one last hope that I can still hold onto. For right now I just feel very lost and VERY alone.

Sorry for this being so long and much of a ramble.

~Doll~