I've been feeling so depressed this last month or so; more than usual. I sleep a lot. I eat nothing but junk (emotional eating). I only get things done around the house when I absolutely have to (husband runs out of underwear or work shirts; all the dishes are dirty, etc.). And I'm isolating myself.

I don't know what I want or need. I saw my therapist today and felt like we had a good discussion but once I got home nothing we talked about made sense. There was so much I wanted to talk to my husband about, but when I looked at the notes I made in therapy, I didn't think I could communicate what I feel (which isn't much) or think.

I have such a disconnect with feelings right now. The only ones I seem to be aware of are irritation, frustration and anger. I feel disingenuous because I'm depressed but not letting on to my husband or best friends. I make jokes and laugh but I don't feel joyful.

I guess I just need to know that someone hears me and understands.