Hi all.

No I am not currently in therapy. I've not had much success with therapy.
That is how I came to be here actually. I found this forum via the psychological self help web site. It's funny, but as a younger man I used to take a great deal of pride in my rebellious / angry nature. I felt it gave me power over everybody. The energy was imposing, and intimidating now perhaps due to my age I am beginning to see how much damage, and how much I have lost as a result. I am tired of feeling this way. I have been trying to use some of the techniques detailed on the self help page, and it seems to help when I take a step back and investigate why I react this way. I have not yet figured out why, why do I feel I need to react to authority the way I do, what purpose has it serve in my life? I suppose it must be some form of defense, but against what? I am not nessasarily seeking answers from any of you on the forum as much as I am thinking / typing aloud, but I do appreciate the feedback.

Thanks, all of you.