Thanks guys! I have stopped doing what I was doing and did some deep breathing. The problem I keep having is not living in the now! I keep thinking two steps ahead and scaring myself. I can't help but think "I don't want to be like this forever" Then I start thinking of hurting myself. Not suicide, just hurt so that I don't have to be at work. It is scarry, but I am coming down slightly.
Thanks for all the support.