i feel so much for you guys...
especially itspeaks and beelieving

itspeaks- i have/and still deal with those self-punishing actions of denying yourself food, and FURTHER punishing yourself if you 'give-in'. there is nothing i can say to change your brain but that i understand and that though i do not know you, i CARE and i WANT YOU TO BE HEALTHY.

beelieving- i have dealt for years with ed issues tightly wound up with ocd tendencies regarding cleanliness and an empty, clean body. whatever it took- purging, laxatives, colonics... i became obsessed with the idea that if my insides were pure and clean, i would be less disgusting- less filthy- and more pure. so girl, i feel you too!

isnt it strange that in our brains we each think that we are so alone in our wierdness? and here we are, post after post- repeating the same thing... "I UNDERSTAND. I FEEL THAT WAY TOO. WE WILL BE OKAY. BE STRONG."