Yeh I am excited about what's happened... but I hurt, I'm lonely
right now I'm really missing John and everything's reminding me of things again I'm trying to think of that he's lied, trying to think that I wouldn't be happy of staying with him in the future (although love's still there) because of issues with his family... I'm trying really hard... these last couple of days haven't been too bad... oh I don't wanna talk about him I only end up feeling worse
my brother's really ill... may have to take him to hospital soon


oh I hurt, just feeling so pap... and my dad's off on one of his "I'm going to make you feel so small, unwanted and not worthy of anything' rampages again.

I want a cloud... to be able to escape to a fluffy white cloud, the sun shining... no hurt, no depression