(((((((recluse))))) ((((((((septembermorn)))))))))))
i'm so sorry that l feel this way.........l dont knoe what to do..........you are both right l dont feel worthy of His love and l certainly cant see why He would forgive me once again............l want to rid myself of these dark and bad thoughts but l just dont seem to be able to.........l have fought them and fought them denied that there are even here and now because of this they haunt my waking hours and also during resting hours...........l am so so lost ...so hurt and the memories are desroying my soul peice by piece....... wheat right do l have to ask for forgiveness and peace and love again and again.......nothing but nothing makes sense right now.............l feel such a failure......
my hope it fades away and im too tired to stop it...im so sorry that l am not beteer and stronger.......
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