((((((((((((((((((((((((((Molly)))))))))))))))))))) I agree with Pegasus...you need to talk to someone. Call your doctor. Call a relative. What a terrible experience for you. At least you know that you did nothing wrong and aren't beating yourself up by blaming yourself--that's a wonderful thing. Sweety you really do need to get out, somehow, someplace. Sending you a ton of hugs!!!