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Originally Posted by MissCharlotte
Today I took a risk in therapy, I explored my longings in the therapeutic relationship. It was weird how this came up. I started my session by telling T how this weekend I missed my Mom. I said with her in heaven, it's like "look but don't touch. He asked if that was how I felt about him. I told T that is seems so unfair that I feel so attached to him, yet we don't touch.
I have a recording I listen to when I am stressed out. It's a guided imagery designed to ease the effects of PTSD. When I listen to this I see T in my mind. Sometimes I am very young in this imaginary journey and he holds my hand. Sometimes he touches my shoulder. I told T about this and he said it was an accurate reflection of how he felt about me.
It just hurts so much. Sigh.  |
Hi Miss C, I have been exploring about my longings about maternal affections too.... There is this huge, probably a 100 year old tree near my house. I imagine its aerial roots sometimes sweeping me off my feet and pulling me in a tight embrace, making everything OK and all the pain go away......... I am in a phase where I seem to have pulled out my transference, so I guess my imagination gives this feeling to my yearnings. meeka