Maybe examine what you get out of this worldview. If you are not staying in therapy and want to explore it on your own, look into the terms secondary gain and ego syntonic--how is this worldview working in service to your ego?

Since you are posting in the pd section, and you describe things getting worse, you might want to know that pds get worse with age. If you want to change badly enough, that's where it begins. Spiritual work (not so much religious) does profound things; it lends to self-examination in a unique and profound way, at least for me.