hey guys...
I know i have not really introduced myself properly and i hate to just jump in and starting raving, but if i don't my head will explode.
things with my husband have been very tense and stressfull for the last couple of months. My depression is wearing on him and i'm scared he's at a breaking point. I have been working only part time for almost a year now after having to leave my last job back in Jan. I know he's feeling the financial strain since i had been the higher earner and my loss of income has really been a burden. But he won't talk about it. He has a crappy job, that he hates and he seems to be getting angrier and angrier. whenever I try to talk to him he just says, don't worry, just get better. he acts like if we can just fix me, then everything will be alright. now my husband is a good man. we've been together 10 years. he also suffers from a chronic illness that for many years kept him from working full time, but he's in remission right now and i'm so grateful for that. But lately all he ever says to me is what's wrong now. sometimes before saying goodmorning or hello it's just what's wrong. and 9 times out of ten . there's nothing wrong at that moment.
so anyway as he's leaving for work today he asked me what's wrong and I say nothing(honest i was fine) and i ask him if he's ok and he just snapped and said you know what's wrong with me, you're smothering me. he's never said anything like that before and i'm so pissed and so ashamed and i feel so guilty all at the same time.
i don't know what to do
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