Hello everyone. I am new to this site and to this forum. I was reaind through things and found my way here and after reading this post almost fell over! I have been batteing self esteem issues all my life and insecurity has been a "war wound" of that battle. My ex husband did not help by verbally and mentally abusiing me throughout my short marriage, but the biggest blow to my self esteem came from my car accident (which I was not at fault for), that disabled me, made me lose my job and gain 15 pounds from inactivity, spinal surgery and medications.
My insecurities are so bad I can't stand looking at magazines wth beautiful, in shape, sexy women and my new husband has to worry about getting his head bit off if he looks at them or chimes in with the boys about a babbe going by. I really don't kbnow what to do. I am on weight watchers, have purchased 5 different self esteem books, but I still can not stand myself the majority of the time. ANy thoughts ?
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Originally Posted by ;381630
(((((((((Wants2fly)))))))))))  I know what you mean. I'm waiting for something inside of me to break-in a good way. You know? Like, when an abused wife gets so fed up with being beaten up she totally loses it, lashes out and beats up the husband?
But instead of it being a husband beating me up-it's me beating me up and one day I'll just jump up and beat the side of me beating me up, down.
Hmmm, does that make any sense?
Anyway, I think it's a matter of determination and courage. A will to believe in yourself.
We can put so much energy into beating ourselves down, can't we turn it around and apply that same energy towards protecting and loving ourselves? |