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By any chance, ms C, is west of the moon in Walnut Creek?
When I read your post, got some wierd responses, its the sort of thing my T would say, sort of very intuned, supportive, but respectful distance, then I realised he was of course, like this with others as well as me. ---- I've never felt jelous in my life, or rarely, but it hit me then, it came up with a ferocity! brought tears to my eyes, oh god, its such an unnacceptable emotion....... And I never experienced jelousy growing up, because there was so much unexpressed emotional pain that there was nothig to be jelous of, not in the usual sense anyway, I mean, attention did not bring comfort, not for me anyway.
So, theres something sort of on the right lines that Im feeling it now, ....... but I find it so hard to accept that I've become all needy at £100 per hour....... - what a con! oh _ _ _ _ ! I've been caught, !! ........
thats what part of me feels like, I feel excruciatingly trapped by this sometimes, like now.
Hope I didnt take over your share too much, this just brought about all these feelings, but good that its good for you ........ ouch! lol
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"Strong passions are the precious raw materials of sanctity" Fulton Sheen
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